Janis Joyce Nathan JAMS

we live inside

There’s a window we look out

We see ourselves out there

We wonder why we are not

We have a prism

The colors glow but we are behind the window

The house encloses and embraces us

We dwell in all the rooms

We are living the life

Of our husbands

We are inside

They are outside

When they come inside

They get anxiety

We respond with fearfulness

The window watches everything

The sun peeks in

The flowers call our name

V

But we are not women

We are wives

Of the window husband

We dare to open the window

and feel the breeze

We wander to the door

And throw it open

We are the women in the

windows

jjn 2/5/2026 2:03 AM

What for?

lack of cooperation and communication

how long?

many noons and moons

how much?

buckets full

recurring dreams

haunting

disturbing interruptions

triggering

debilitating symptoms of

remorseful guilt

repenting shame that leads to

resentful anguish

denial of selfishness

No self ~accountability

deep deep waters of

drowning memories

depressing news bites with

distinct divergence

a bracelet of recurrences!

da stink of it all!

jjn 10:07AM 9/8/2025 GARDENSIDE

I am fighting to understand

who you are

you are fighting

me

I am struggling

to be closer

As you push me away

I am abandoned

without you

And lonely with you

I am afraid to be myself

While you are trying

to control me minutely

I am in a cage

You keep shaking it

With intentions of

upsetting me

Chaotic communication

Cruel words of

revenge or rage

The limits of time

Erasing my memories

Who are you ?

Who am I ?

What does it take to

stop the spiral?

jjn 1:16pm 9/2/2025

Most people like

the sunshine day garden

but nighttime brings new

dimensions and discoveries

A squawking crow in the palm

a hummer on the power pole

Who came down to see me

on my bench

3 sparrows on a wooden wall

My Ms Skye in her den

with gramma’s brown towels

The sun was sneaking down

behind my garage

The mourning dove

flew over my head

landed on the wall and

stopped down to the grass

The dog watched

The clouds were whipping up

a breeze around my face

The pinwheels and sunflowers

moved when they were

interested in showing off

The milkweed

was asleep in the dirt and

they were secretly

waiting to pop up

JJN 7/28/2025 Evening

Sounds like a bucket list

Well what’s in your heart of hearts

HAWAIIAN VACAY

Canada Italy France Spain and England

Australia

travel on a river cruise

Get healthier

Renew facial skin

Visit friends

Help Raise grands with fun trips

Gramma she shed to enjoy my last years

jjn

UNANXIOUS

What does that mean to me ?

I don’t want to hear the news

Makes me anxious

I don’t want to

Ride in the car in LA

it makes me anxious

I don’t like going to the doctor

it makes me anxious

I don’t like arguments

they make

anxious

I don’t like thinking about my mistakes in the past

it makes me anxious

I don’t like remembering

It makes me anxious

How can I move out of the anxious house

Where is the UNANXIOUS house?

Why am I so anxious about everything

I did not have these anxieties before

Why now

Why me why?

1:31am 4/5/2025

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It’s not shining

It’s not believable

It’s unworthy

It’s a sham

It has been scammed

It has been bled

The world is crumbling

without the people

The people who are smiling

and not beguiling

The world is watching

But now it feels like it’s hiding

Lurking in the corners

Waiting to rob someone

Sneaking a peek

at the innocent

Trying to trick the wisdom

out of humanity

someone into dead ends

Or take the goodness

out of the sunshine

Turn off the light of the stars

Cover the lighthouses

And blind the seekers

The world is in the shadows

But we can renew

the energy of our ancestors

and

Bring back

the magnificence of freedom

and hope

and kindness

and dignity

with integrity

We were created for that purpose

Bring the world out of the shadows

It doesn’t belong there

Where is your light?

4/1/2025 11:11 pm A day in the shadows with the world

They don’t work on this problem

They never will

They are familiar crutches

They just add to the problem

The answers are R and A

Responsible and Acknowledgement

Accountability and restoration

Actuality and reality

Amen and Rise up

Keep on keeping on

ABUNDANCE AND RECOGNITION

Applying and renewing

Ambition and restitution

Restraint and awareness

Remember you are

the author of your life

the pilot of your journey

the ground control of your emotions

the air traffic controller of the distractions

You can do all things

http://www.janisjoycenathan.com

9/29/24 1:15 am

Distortion of intentions

Adversarial arguments

Denial of pain infliction

Emotional audacity

Freaking fake phases

Reversing kindness to deviations

Fall on my knees

in 7:27am. 9/18/24 Harvest Moon

Pain has a direct relationship in the physical world and body with the negative spiritual energy that you chose to store in your heart receptacle. What is that? A holder to retain , a container, receiver, or vessel, to receive and contain to hold indefinitely.. The heart does not understand negative energy, so it pushes it away to injured part so Faye injured areas of the physical body. Cleansing and purifying needs to be done to the mind, body, spirit, and brain. Release the negative energy to the the Universe because it handles it differently. It absorbs it , but then reuses it efficiently. The heart and spirit have no use for it, and it can be harmful to stay connected to those sources of negativity. The pain remains until you take specific notice of its existence and release it through steps based on a simple formula. LET GO: LET GOD. Don’t mess in Gods business, stay out of Gods office, don’t touch Gods files , because it is one of your business what others think about you. Focus on what God wants you to do. Perform with all your heart. Heart